The Greatest Children's Book...and Other Wonders

Can you tell I do a lot of reading? Right now, I am reading 'Through the Looking Glass' by Lewis Carol for, I don't know...the billionth time now?! That is my favorite favorite FAVORITE book of all. For me I wouldn't even call it a children's book, since it can be interesting to all ages. I can't say exactly what I heart about it, thought I could say this, a very discreet and unspecific answer: absolutely everything. The melting, gauzy mirror, the talking flowers, and the twisted logic...good times. They have made several ALICE movies, but my favorite is the one made by Disney. Just sharing how much I love that book.

And whenever I read a book like that, it makes me wonder all manner of things. I won't take time to list them now, but my train of thought led me to this question: now that I'm in eighth grade, exactly who should I be? Who do people want me to be? Who do people see me as? And most importantly: who am I?

Maybe a question a lot of us think about, or maybe lots of us skip over that and think of something less...thoughtful. But I wanna know!! I've been hearing of rumors going around about me of things that aren't true. That I idolize my best friend and aspire to be every bit what she is? So not true. I heart her, but that's way different than wishing I was her and her and her. I look up to her, but I don't worship her and the grounds that she's walked. It's not unusual for me to have rumors flying: I was forced to get used to it when I was at the young, innocent and simple age of nine years old. Good times...I thought. Until the rumors happened. Things are smoother now, and I'm slowly tearing down a wall that was built up over the years.

I'm not sure what I'm trying to say. I guess what my core afterthought is is this: I need to find out who I am, who I want to be, who I should let people think I am, and who I should belong too.

When did life get so questioning? Difficult, if you will?

On Another Note...

On a slightly different note, one that still has something to do with reading, I have discovered a great book today. The title is project sunlight. I have noticed in this book that the main character is not Meg, or Sunlight, but the angel watching over her, Jared. As he records her day-to-day changes in his journal, he watches her and her friend Sybil grow in Christ. Seeing things from a supposed angel's perspective, an angel who hangs out with Jesus, puts a whole new light on things. It makes me wish that sometimes I could go back to the beginning and start over, seeing him in a different light than the one he is portrayed in now. What I see currently is someone who is attached to his Throne of Golden Glory, his perfect jewels perfectly perched on His perfect head, looking down his nose at sinful me. What I want to see is my best friend and father, walking along the path of Life with me, talking things through.

Today I heard a poem written called "Footprints in the Sand" that touched me a lot.

Footprints in the Sand


One night a man had a dream. He dreamedhe was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him,he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path ofhis life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the verylowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way.But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering,when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

written by Mary Stevenson



Hmm.

What the Effing EF.

Public announcement:

Let me read what I want, Neil. You know who you are. Because I can't name the 3 main characters of "To Kill a Mockingbird," a "great literary work of art" as you so challengingly called it, you are assuming I am a slutty, bitchy, shallow piece of literary CRAP. Oh, Neil, I'm so sorry! I had no idea you would waste your precious time that you could have been reading great literary art to read some silly, slutty, childish piece of crap. I didn't know you cared.

Get off my back, Neil. You are so different it's not even funny. If I ef up my life, you can let my do that. Because it's my life and I'm not spending it on growing up WAY before my time. I am still young and I have a lot of life ahead of me, even if I was to die tonight. If I died to tonight, I would die happy for two reasons.

1. I let myself read what I wanted.
2. I stood up for myself, my tastes, and my future.

Get it?
Got it?

Good.

In the Course of 48 Hours....

Everything in my life went basurk. I don't know what's happening, with the people I thought I knew, with the person I thought I was. I'm up for changes in the house, rearranging and redecorating, but not in my personal life and heart. I know, I know, I'm an emotional person. But where exactly am I supposed to go? Doesn't anyone think about that anymore? Or does everyone just think about school supplies and back to school shopping? (Okay, I think about shopping a lot to. It's okay. :) I think everyone asks themselves this after a summer is gone. Where did that summer go? Or better yet, what did I do with it?

This is one of those times where you don't have to understand what I'm saying. You just need to nod your head and pretend to listen.

Who knew Massie's sense of humor could get me a new friend and cyber-cutie?

Not me. <3>

Just viewed that! Chart was NOT laid out like that.

Mikaela's Current State of the Union
IN
Skate Parties
Faux Tanning
Knee-highs

OUT
Pool Parties
Sun Tanning
Ankle-highs

Current State of the Union

Along with loving gossipgirl, a-list, and the it-girl books, I will admit to reading the Clique books as well. And my favorite (like thousands of other girls) is Massie. One of the things she does is blog what's in and out in her life. Her version of a diary, I guess. Here's MY in and out.

Mikaela's Current State of the Union
IN OUT
Skate Parties Pool Parties
Faux Tanning Suntanning
Knee-highs Metallic Blue Boots

Since I'm basically positive no one reads this, I'm just doing this for my own amusement.

Haha.